The clouds gather; the sun dims its glare, only to increase the stifling heat. Even before the sky darkens, one knows something is coming--a storm, a hail, a gust, or even a tornado--anything that kills the humidity, whatever the contingent damage. Please come, please come. I yearn for it. It has been a hot humid … Continue reading The Rainstorm
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Why Haven’t I Heard Of Him
Who is Mencken and why haven't I heard of him before? One of Mencken's fans claims online. Same here. I want to make the same claim, but I know why I haven't heard of him before. I am a sloth and I usually won't go out of my way to try to know a book … Continue reading Why Haven’t I Heard Of Him
Fireworks
There are so much more fireworks this year and my friend even called me about it. How would I know? Probably more fireworks are manufactured and sold this year? People become more willing to display fireworks? A more likely scenario is--the law about fireworks has been changed. Several days ago, when driving along Route 18 … Continue reading Fireworks
Organize And Disorganize
One thing I've never learned to do is using a planner or an organizer. I tried, but using it is almost as difficult for me as counting in English. I think among all the things that an immigrant cannot learn easily, counting in one's second language claims the crown of all inabilities. Using an organizer … Continue reading Organize And Disorganize
My Voice
I tried to read aloud some poems so that I can listen to the recording later when I do chores. I was shocked to discover that my voice sounds terrible. It is a little throaty, a little whiny, a little diffident, a little apologizing, with that typical unwillingness in exertion. I love myself as a … Continue reading My Voice
Memory
I can't believe I've read "The Descent Of Man And Other Stories" before. This was the first impression I had when I read the "Quicksand" and "The Mission of Jane". I remember where I read the "Quicksand"--in an online Wharton fan site, where the short story is truncated and the last chapter is not included. … Continue reading Memory
Amazon Recommends
Amazon recommends me something at least once a day in my email; it sends me advertisements disguised as login screen on my Kindle Fire. But I've never bought anything through its recommendations. Not that I'm impervious to marketing campaigns. Also I am not devoid of common human weaknesses which are usually cleverly explored by ads. … Continue reading Amazon Recommends
Too Much Distancing
My friend's refrigerator died just when the refrigerator is most needed in this 90 degree (Fahrenheit not Celsius) weather. Not completely dead. Just the freezer part. He blames his bad luck, considers the manufacture unreliable, and opts to buy a new one of a different brand instead of calling for a repair man. At the … Continue reading Too Much Distancing
Alternative Interpretation
There's always at least one alternative interpretation to events and stories of a philosophy book or a psychology book. I mean a book like "Emotional Intelligence". I wonder what will happen if the author change his angle a little bit and add the cultural and ethnic differences in his interpretation of emotional intelligence. For example, … Continue reading Alternative Interpretation
Incomprehensible Paradise
I am completely lost. I don't know what "Paradise Lost and Paradise Regained" is talking about. Is there even a plot for this long endless poem? I bought this book because it is on sale at Audible. Time and again, such a preference for discount has led to my not liking or even understanding a … Continue reading Incomprehensible Paradise
My Favorite
"The Philanderer" is the best play from Shaw that I've ever read, as good as "Man of Destiny", better than "Mrs Warren's Profession", Arms and The Man, You Never Can Tell, The Devil's Disciple, Caesar and Cleopatra, Man and Superman, Don Juan in Hell, Major Barbara, Pygmalion, Heartbreak House, The Apple Cart, The Millionairess. I … Continue reading My Favorite
The Other Three Or More
"The Descent Of Man And Other Stories" is as interesting as the previous short story collections I read of Wharton. Actually I like her short stories even better than her novels. Comparing her with other short story writers I like, for example, Alice Monroe, Everlyn Waugh, Issac Babel, John Cheever... Why do I want to … Continue reading The Other Three Or More
Exercise Or Not Exercise
A sloth doesn't want to exercise when she doesn't have to, but as time goes by, the sloth wants to be a healthy sloth. So she starts to exercise, in addition to buying grocery at Trader Joe's, reducing nocturnal activities, reconciling to the fact that not every book is worth to be read cover to … Continue reading Exercise Or Not Exercise
The Views Of The Beholders
What is Juneteenth? What did Thomas Jefferson and George Washington do--I mean what did they do other than being a proper founding father? Now suddenly there come new terms to be learned from the news, new facts about famous figures to be revealed to ignorant people like me. History seems no longer a boring dogmatic … Continue reading The Views Of The Beholders
Indispensable
I got up late today. Almost 9 o'clock when I woke up from a vague dream about something happened in the sitcom "Frasier", which I watched before going to sleep. There's no time to lose since I had to be at "Trader Joe's" before shoppers as ravenous as me emptying the shelves of my favorite … Continue reading Indispensable
Conversation About Cars
The year, the model, the trend, the size, the color, the brand. I have a friend who knows a lot about these things. He pays attention to them. I don't. How people defer! He has a seven-year-old BMW. It is an admirable brand, but it makes trouble at least three or four times a year … Continue reading Conversation About Cars
The Name Of The Store
I can't believe I discovered Trader Joe's only three days ago. Not that I didn't know its existence. I heard about it for years. Then a couple of years back, when I drove past Barnes & Noble on Route 1, I saw, at the place where the bookstore used to stand and show off its … Continue reading The Name Of The Store
The Impact
The impact of this new virus is not restricted to all the regular perils and sufferings of a lockdown. The travel between the U.S. and many Asian destinations are completely thrown into chaos. Stories and rumors abound. A college student couldn't fly back home from Newark Airport directly and had to resort to an outrageous … Continue reading The Impact
Perspectives Old And New
The recent protests have brought me perspectives that I really haven't thought much about before. I've read something about Christopher Columbus in "The Half Has Never Been Told", but the book is written in a less entertaining way than what I prefer that I only have a very vague memory of what it says. Learning … Continue reading Perspectives Old And New
The Descent Of Memory
“A serious piece of work—the expression of your convictions. I tell you there’s nothing the public likes as much as convictions—they’ll always follow a man who believes in his own ideas." I highlighted it but I have no recollection of it. Actually I read half of "The Descent of Man" already--when did I do that?--but … Continue reading The Descent Of Memory
Happy and Happier
I like "The Happiness Hypothesis" a lot although I don't always agree with the author. His elephant metaphor is very apt and I too have often felt that I am riding an elephant which has a mind of its own. The thing is I want to let the elephant be natural and unforced and inspiring, … Continue reading Happy and Happier
Crucial Exploration
I thought it would be more suitably titled "Crucial Exploration" rather than "Crucial Instances". I like everything Wharton wrote, almost indiscriminately, even if when she's exploring different possibilities with her writing in her "Crucial Instances". Some people say "Crucial Instances" are better than her first short story collection "The Greater Inclination", but I have no … Continue reading Crucial Exploration
Eating Vicariously
I don't know how to use the word "vicariously", but it's a word I have always wanted to use and never got to do it, until now. Even though I've never used it, it's a word I can never forget after the first encounter since it describes modern life, modern love, modern enjoyment so aptly. … Continue reading Eating Vicariously
A Video and A Statue
I watched the news of the toppling of the statue of Edward Colston in Bristol, UK and the statue of Leopold II in Brussels, but I don't connect the dots. I don't know these two people and I don't much care of the significance of their statues. Of course I want to care, I am … Continue reading A Video and A Statue
What I think
I can't help feeling seriously inadequate right now that all me and my friends can talk about is keeping away from the street and hoping that no Asian stories getting looted or set on fire. The immigrants community is a little out of loop from the surrounding society. We take stricter caution for coronavirus and … Continue reading What I think
Not Quite Like Onigiri
It doesn't taste like the real Japanese rice ball--onigiri--I had before. Something is off but I don't know what it is. My enthusiasm for cooking has waned to the point that I don't mind it is real onigiri or not as long as it is eatable. I admit it is eatable. How can it not … Continue reading Not Quite Like Onigiri
New Inclination
I really don't know what to say about "The Greater Inclination", but I know I have to say something, just to tell myself that I've read the book and leave a record of it, no matter how reluctant. I really like each of the stories, especially the first one about a muse' complaint--she's not a … Continue reading New Inclination
Idiosyncrasy
I found myself explaining what idiosyncrasy is to a friend. Now I can't even remember how it came up and why I was doing it, but I remember that it suddenly dawned on me that I don't know this word so well to differentiate it from words like eccentricity, temperament, characteristics, antics, missteps. For example, … Continue reading Idiosyncrasy
Heat Exercise
I didn't know the phrase "heat exercise" even existed, but now that I know it I will start to practice it. Not that I have any other choice. It's hard to achieve social distancing in a gym; walking under the blazing sun outside is unpleasant. Is it dangerous to exercise in the heat? Is it … Continue reading Heat Exercise
No Exit
I finally finished "No Exit" after starting it almost a year ago. It's a short play in writing and in performance. I read a little bit first, gave up, then read a bit more, gave up, then watched a video of it, gave up, before finally completing it today. The problem is it is too … Continue reading No Exit
Exercise
I have to contrive a way to exercise in this heat. Actually it is not much of a heat at all. 89 degrees, not even 90 degrees. Still, it is a struggle to find a good way to do daily exercises in this temperature. Gym is not opening; shopping mall not opening; early rise before … Continue reading Exercise
Hero Or Villain
I watched the movie by Oliver Stone, but the movie only piqued my interest to know more about Snowden. "Permanent Record" is the answer. It's a passive narration without much attention for interesting details or humor. I'm surprised that I have been fully engaged in listening from the beginning to the end. The last three … Continue reading Hero Or Villain
Another Phone Call
I haven't seen her for five years. Flushing, New York is not so far away, but I've never gathered enough energy to go there. I know I should, but as a self proclaimed sloth, I'm true to my indolent self. She's nice, girlish, sweet, and polite. In contrast, I'm awkward, impetuous, pensive, impertinent. She's very … Continue reading Another Phone Call
News And More News
One of my friends suddenly fell listless and unwell. He will be in bed today and he said he didn't know what's wrong with him. A friend's indisposition will usually put us in a mild gloom. There are news that many Asian stores in New York City are smashed and goods looted. It is said … Continue reading News And More News
Doing and Undoing
"The Undoing Project" is almost a companion to "Thinking, Fast and Slow". I wish I had read these two together. Or better still, I should have read this book in advance of the other one. The author has such a talent of turning boring subject into interesting stories that he has made the science of … Continue reading Doing and Undoing
Poster At Time Square
"W's painting was made into a poster displayed at Time Square this week." My friend told me excitedly. W is a relative of my friend who has been a wandering artist for years. Not that he has a preference for perambulation, but rather he's wandering between feeding himself and starving himself, between hope and despair, … Continue reading Poster At Time Square
What Happened?
My friend sent me a video of a popular video telling the story of Dean Lung or Ding Long using a different romanization. He was a servant living around the time of one hundred years ago, but somehow he managed to save some money and donated to a well known college which can afford to … Continue reading What Happened?
The Figurative Mountain
The figurative mountain exists in the book "Three Tigers, One Mountain", which is obviously referring to the East Asia. How about adding Russia as another tiger to the tree since the Russians have fought Japanese in many battles, on land and on high seas, for more than one hundred years. How about throwing Mongolia to … Continue reading The Figurative Mountain
From Boring To Interesting
I like the books "Liar's Poker" and "Boomerang". So when audible offers a discount of "The Fifth Risk", I have to take it. I don't know what's 1st, 2nd, 3rd, and 4th risk? Or probably the author explained at some point but I missed; or probably it's a common knowledge that I don't know--as a … Continue reading From Boring To Interesting
Canny and Uncanny
I've never seen anybody use the word canny, but uncanny makes regular appearance here and there. However this is the first time I see a book with such a title, "Uncanny Valley". My interest is piqued. After reading the Amazon reviews, I know I have to read it. It's about Silicon Valley, which would be … Continue reading Canny and Uncanny
Turmeric (Continued)
I've tried many different ways to eat turmeric, but so far without any success. I suspect that the only good way of eating it is to make curry first and cook a pot of curry chicken. I envy my Indian American neighbors who have the habit of eating curry frequently and receiving the health benefit … Continue reading Turmeric (Continued)
Turmeric
Years ago I first encountered turmeric when I grew an abscess about the size of a half ping pong ball. It's all because of napa cabbage, my favorite. In the northern part of Asia where I grew up, napa cabbage has been something we eat frequently, the only vegetable abundantly available during the winter time … Continue reading Turmeric
Time Management
I never know how to do time management. I record important things that I shouldn't forget in Google calendar and that's the only time management effort I've ever made. Not that I've never tried to manage my time. I did try before but failed miserably each time. Think about it. If I was doing something … Continue reading Time Management
New Plan
The free trial period of HBO will end in two days, and I have watched all six seasons of "Silicon Valley". Now I will be waiting for the launch of HBO Max to finish all the "Big Bang Theory" that I missed before, and all the "Friends" episodes that I didn't watch when I had … Continue reading New Plan
Alternative Views
HBO suddenly descends on me for free and I wonder why? To take full advantage of it, I watched "Curb Your Enthusiasm" day and night, nonstop, neglecting all other daily activities. Other than comparing it with "Seinfeld", other than enjoying Sussie's combative language, other than admiring Larry David's way of describing the life as he … Continue reading Alternative Views
Haircut
While walking around the neighborhood as a form of unqualified exercise yesterday, I saw a boy of about ten to twelve years of age cutting hair for his father. They do look alike, or is it my imagination, and I assumed they are father and son. The boy looked rather skilled and showed remarkable composure. … Continue reading Haircut
Enjoy it
I enjoy "Harriet" a lot and shed a lot of tears, but at the same time I'm disappointed with the movie which didn't stick with Harriet's real stories. Her carrying of a live chicken is not depicted--there's no mention of the time when she was stopped by patrol but saved herself pretending to chase her … Continue reading Enjoy it
All Those Unknown Battles
This book, "The Decisive Battles of World History" is almost a sequel to "History's Great Military Blunders and the Lessons They Teach". When I finished one, I have to finish the other. I have to say I like this one even better. The inclusion of Japanese Russian Japanese conflicts (Battle of Tsushima, Battles of Khalkhin … Continue reading All Those Unknown Battles
Stay At Home
I have to go out to buy groceries. To avoid the weekend crowd in the Asian grocery stores around here, I didn't go out for the last two days except a long walk in the neighborhood. The spring flowers are mostly gone; trees gain a deeper shade of green; wind is comfortably warm on one's … Continue reading Stay At Home
Escapism
When will everything go back to normal? Don't tell me that's never going to happen. I don't want reasonable skepticism no matter how healthy that is. I want hopes, illusions, and delusional optimism. Escapism is desperately needed for this trying time. Too bad that I've already passed the age of mad absorption in a book … Continue reading Escapism
No Excuses
My interest in the book, "No Excuses: Existentialism And The Meaning Of Life", stems from my fascination with the philosophical feud between Camus and Sartre. Can rebels rebel without violence? Or is violence avoidable if rebels want to achieve their goal? Can freedom and justice coexist peacefully? Is absolute freedom something against freedom? Is absolute … Continue reading No Excuses
Regrettable Battles
I really think this book, "History's Great Military Blunders", is one of the best among the "Great Courses" series, as good as "Modern Political Tradition". This is an audible book at first and then it appears in Amazon video. When I scrolled down the list of the 24 episodes, I saw "Battle of Red Cliff", … Continue reading Regrettable Battles
A Walk
A long walk in the neighborhood, mask being a nuisance. Can't breathe under the plastic like fabric; can't even smile. When eyes are the only part revealed, they gain unnecessary alert and lost their shine. Empty streets, closed stories, wary masked figures. When will this endless torment end? Hope, doubt, uncertainty, part of routine anxiety. … Continue reading A Walk
I’m Glad She Called
I'm glad she called. She wanted to ask an urgent question about somebody we both know and I replied quickly and right to the point. We haven't talked with each other for quite a while. Being just acquaintance doing a project together for a while, we separated quietly and there seems to be no occasion … Continue reading I’m Glad She Called
Xanadu Again
"The Travels of Marco Polo" is almost unreadable. I struggled for several pages and had to give up. There's no pleasure in reading it, but my curiosity of the man and his travel can't be appeased. That's why I searched and found this book, which is comprehensive in its content, engaging in its language. It … Continue reading Xanadu Again
Theory and Practice
How much do political practices follow political theories? A skeptic's view on "The Modern Political Tradition". This is the best among the "Great Courses" series that I've listened to in the past several years, although I didn't really get the audible book for this one, but rather the Amazon video. Professor Cahoone has made distinctive … Continue reading Theory and Practice
Something I Should Have Done Long Ago
I should have read "Full Dark, No Stars" long time ago. I know I would have liked it ten years ago. However I encounter Stephen King too late, long after I've lost interest in extraordinary circumstances and gory details. Now I am more into uneventful bantering and boring routine of life. I remember as a … Continue reading Something I Should Have Done Long Ago
The Unintended Advantage
There's an unintended advantage of wearing a face mask, which I didn't realize until today--no need to fix your hair or even wear makeup before you step out. Face masks can be liberating, time saving, anxiety reducing. I mean the anxiety of feeling yourself not looking as good as you should look. Now it is … Continue reading The Unintended Advantage
Sudden Popularity
Some stores have gained sudden popularity since the start of the lockdown. I am talking about the Asian grocery store right around the corner from where I live. By the way, when will everything go back to normal again? I yearn for the good old days when we complained about the boredom of living in … Continue reading Sudden Popularity
Phone Batteries
My friend has an iPhone and the battery needs constant charging. Whenever it is not charged, the battery bars go down from fully charged to zero in just one long phone call or one wechat conversation. "Replace the battery at once." I said, wondering if it sounds silly to be asked so obvious a question … Continue reading Phone Batteries
Wellness Anxiety
I reordered three bottles of "Wellness Formula", less for the real purpose of wellness improvement and more for alleviating my wellness anxiety. In the era of face masks and virus scare, anything that is remotely related with increased immunity is a comfort to possess. They came in much smaller bottles than I anticipated. I bought … Continue reading Wellness Anxiety
Because of the Title
I must have chosen this video because of its title, "From Paris With Love". My mind wiggles a little whenever it hears "Paris"; my mind wiggles a little bit more when the title reminisces one of the Jame Bond series; my friend's mind wiggles also when he saw John Travolta in the trailer--I didn't notice … Continue reading Because of the Title
Not Getting Younger
Another book on sale and another book one could regret one bought it. Even the picture on the cover, which looks just as sanguine as another nice outfit for a nice book, is deceptively depressing. So many candles crowd the cake that the oversized flaming top seems on the point of toppling over. However once … Continue reading Not Getting Younger
All About Food
I haven't read many books on food, except two or three books of Anthony Bourdain and one by Marcus Samuelsson and one by Jim Gaffigan. So "Food: A Cultural Culinary History" is rather interesting in its grand scope and its comprehensiveness. People, who are used to food books, may want more specific things and more … Continue reading All About Food
A Cloudy Day
My friend said New Jersey is getting more rainy each year and I totally agree with him. When the rain comes, it comes for two or three days at least, sometimes for a week; often a light rain is not actually falling but rather misting and saturating the air--even with an umbrella, your face and … Continue reading A Cloudy Day
A Day
I woke up at six o'clock in the morning, groggy and uncomfortable, wanting to sleep more but unable to, wanting to read something but impossible to focus. Half an hour later, not knowing how, I went back to a shallow dream, which I can't remember now what it was about, and woke up at nine … Continue reading A Day
One Tablespoon Too Much
One tablespoon too much and everything is ruined. Now I look at the oyster sauce, the innocent looking perpetrator, and imagine an ideal world where everything is reversible--including the cooking process--and nothing regrettable needs to be regretted. The problem is that in order to save time, I made a big batch of it. The shear … Continue reading One Tablespoon Too Much
Bad Memory
I can't believe I said this, but I did and it was recorded in the Goodread with me saying that "Man of Destiny" is the best play of Shaw in my opinion. I didn't even remember what this play is about when I read Mencken's book on Shaw. It's a very funny and subtle book, … Continue reading Bad Memory
Barbarian Or Not Barbarian
I think the word "barbarian" in "Barbarians of The Steppes" is used to entice the audience rather than to be derogatory. Actually people use it so randomly and so carelessly that rarely anybody has faith in it anymore. Whenever somebody is called a barbarian, one begins to think that this person may just be exotic … Continue reading Barbarian Or Not Barbarian
Another Day
The headache is gone; the chore is done. The sun is not shining; the wind is not whining; the rain is all but resigning. Face adorned with self made mask; go out for a shopping task. The air is misty; or is it crispy? Outside the store, the long line is winding; people standing there, … Continue reading Another Day
Headache
The headache came last night and wouldn't go away even now, 24 hours later. Since headache is one of the symptoms of the new virus, I naturally suspect that I might have got it. Actually, a random cough here and there, an occasional sneeze, or even the gurgling sound from the stomach can alert the … Continue reading Headache
Watching “Parasite”
Watching "Parasite" with a friend, I was a little astonished to find that he mostly sided with the rich family. I am rather ambiguous about the moral issues here and more sympathetic towards the poor family, who has to hustle in order to survive. I thought everybody thinks like me, but as often is the … Continue reading Watching “Parasite”
At Dawn
Getting up at six o'clock, one can enjoy the twilight for almost an hour, from the early darkness with a diffusion of light almost purple-ish to nearly seven o'clock when the morning light, obscured by thick clouds, arrives reluctantly. Turning on the light will spoil the natural grey mixture of light and shadow; not turning … Continue reading At Dawn
Reading “Greater Inclination”
Now that I know Wharton wrote many books of short stories, I'd want to read some of them. Just her way with language alone will draw me to her work. Long ago, I trudged through "Valley of Decisions" and could only manage less than half of it. So foreign to the life she described and … Continue reading Reading “Greater Inclination”
Reading “The Myth”
I only understand a small portion of it. "The Myth of Sisyphus" needs to be reread, but just from my partial understanding of it, Sisyphus is considered to be enjoying his futile effort and useless task. If I read this book through the lens of an immigrant, I wonder if Camus is giving a foreboding … Continue reading Reading “The Myth”
Empty
Route 27 is almost empty at 10AM. More than one of my friends detest this road, especially this section of the road in Edison--congestion at every crossroad, cars going in and out of the plazas and strip malls, double yellow line disregarded for good reasons. More than one suffered an accident or narrowly escaped one. … Continue reading Empty
A Spring Day
The street is empty, from one block to another, only a surly man walking his sad dog. Distancing is social or asocial? He keeps a good distance by walking almost half a circle, just to avoid me. The park is in accessible, all cordoned off, police car parking at the entrance. It looks empty and … Continue reading A Spring Day