The Grocery Store
I went to the Asian grocery store today. I didn’t go last weekend and today I had to go. And guess what, the price has gone up again. Just when I thought the price could not possibly be higher–who would buy it if it’s higher–it became higher and it was sold out. The Korean red beans have increased to $4 a pound. And the brand I like is sold out. Also pickled tofu is sold out too. It used to be $2 a package, but now the price is almost $5. The worst is that only the hideous price tag is there, underneath the empty shelf.
The Social Media
I was doing a little bit of spell checking for a story I was writing. And I got on this social media site to check out the pages of two old acquaintances. Just as I was copying and pasting a township name and a job title, I mis-clicked a button and immediately a request for “friend” was sent to this person. I had no intention of doing that and I was very panicky. The worst thing was that I couldn’t even retract the request.
Finally, out of total frustration, I deleted my account in that social media site and wished that the person would not notice my message, which I had no intention of sending in the first place. Hope the whole thing would go away without any repercussions.
I was helping W to fill up two forms. And W is not afraid to say he doesn’t know even to the simplest questions, like his daughter’s email and phone number. He is not afraid to make mistakes, or to admit his ignorance, or to arrive half an hour late for an appointment. That’s really his strength. He never tries to be perfect–he deals with life in his own imperfect ways. And he never considers other people’s aspiration to gain knowledge, to be punctual, to seek approval is a worthy cause. He is very much himself.
And when he’s driving away, I said to him that he should roll up his window since it is not very safe to drive with all the windows open. After he drove away, I thought to myself why I was always so negative him. I mean I noticed things and why couldn’t I just keep my mouth shut? I need to be more positive and more agreeable.
I haven’t been very active on WP recently because I have realized that I am not very realistic about my writing, given the fact that I am very bad at time management, scheduling, or squeezing time. Basically I think I am hopeless at time management. Knowing such a reality, my goal should be managing my inadequacy rather than dreaming of my self improvement.
There’s an ancient story that a man loves dragons so much that he paints dragons on his walls and on his clothes. The dragon king hears about his story and pays a visit to this super fan of his. And when the man sees the dragon king walking towards him, he runs away as fast as he can.
So an unrealistic goal can be very damaging to one’s life. To a certain extent, I am this dragon-loving man, dreaming of something quite unrealistic.