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Poem Of The Day #49 She has a question about so and so, and I'm answering as if I know. But I really don't. Why? Why do I behave like a know-it-all? Why can't I shake my head and let it go? Just admit that I don't know since I often mistake bluff for courage, brag for facts, courtesy for sweetness, belief for knowledge, dogma for strength, inflexibility for virtue. Is it because she expects me to know? I make an effort to be pleasant, end up overdoing it. Growing up, I was trained to be agreeable on the outside, only to disagree more bitterly from the inside. Why do I need her acknowledgement? I don't know why.
Haoyan Do 
Many don’t behave or talk as they want to. Always searching for validation. Nice one, Haoyan!🙂
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Yes, I mean approval from others is so ingrained in me that I have to stay away from certain people because I know I am going to fall into the psychological trap of trying to gain their approval. I was trained that way, but I have to fight back to protect myself.
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It’s beautiful..
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Thank you.
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