Feeling Normal Again

Suddenly, last week, I came down with an upset stomach and a diarrhea for a day and a half, which resulted in my lying in bed for most of the time, except when answering phone calls. I feel that a person’s voice is different when standing vertically or lying horizontally. This is why I never answer a phone call in bed. Anyway, I tried to scramble to my feet whenever the phone rang and attempted a very strong voice to show that I was stronger than I really was. Probably my voice was too strong and too forceful. I somehow had a mistaken impression that I was more confident than I really was, more conviction in what I was saying, more knowledgeable etc.

I have to be very careful with myself since I grew up under two narcissistic parents. Whenever I let myself loose, I can easily start to boast and exaggerate. Although I am a shy person in general, I can become annoyingly talkative on certain topics. I can even say something that will be infringing on other people’s boundaries since that’s something my parents did all the time with each other and with me. It is very important for me to be vigilant about self regulating.

Watched A Bad Drama

During the one and half days, I watched two very bad K Dramas, which are not real K Dramas, but fake ones. At first, I thought I would use the time to brush up my Spanish in bed by watching some Spanish videos, but I just couldn’t concentrate. I only watched a 10 min video on Mexican food and had to give up on language learning entirely. And then I searched for K Drama, and selected one of the search result–a fake K Drama.

It was so bad that I was ashamed of myself for watching it. Where was my taste? Since I was sick, I felt that I was allowed to have no taste and to enjoy some brainless fun. It’s a cliche romance. The hero is handsome and androgynous. I bet half of the women watch this romance because of his looks. The plot is formulated on the usual and the predictable, such as bad people sadistically torture good people, but bad people are eventually vanquished and good people triumph over impossible odds. And as if it is not bad enough already, it has to add a plot twist in which traditional values run amok. People, heroes or villains alike, regularly profess their readiness to sacrifice their lives to uphold a ridiculous ancient belief, such as respecting a mad king, serving a corrupt system, or fighting a losing battle against a formidable enemy.

And on top of all the above, it always involves a love story in which a woman tortures herself in every possible way to chase after a man who has no interest in her. I really don’t see the entertainment value in it, especially for the female audience. Yet against our better sense and better reasoning, countless female fans (me included) watch dramas like this and enjoy it. It is absurd, isn’t it?

Mysterious Language Improvement

I didn’t touch Spanish for a week. And then after my illness, I felt that my Spanish mysteriously improved. Is it unbelievable? Well, just a little bit, but still it was a noticeable small improvement for no reason at all.

I routinely got Spanish advertisement on YouTube videos and people speak so quickly that it is impossible for me to understand anything except occasionally catching a phrase like “gracias” or “ahorra dinero”. However yesterday, I was able to understand half of USPS’ advertisement. As you know USPS stands for United States Postal Service. Since it is a public service, it is understandably always in financial trouble and can’t compete with private companies like UPS. Anyway, in this Spanish advertisement, I was able understand its message of being able to deliver everywhere and being able to deliver on time.

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